NICKILL

COLD cold bodies

Sun, 29 Nov 2009 09:39:51 GMT

i feel my insides dry rotting
my skin is cracking
the captivity of walls surround me
the doors r locked from the outside
the doorbell is dead
there is no exit
the hole in the ground is were i sleep
the sun has vanished
my eyez glazed over
my bones have dissolved
my body is cold!

good morning and good night

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 10:10:11 GMT

i hate being awake
its 5 am whats the point
i miss my dreams
and maybe sleep
school is killing me!
2 weeks left
being left alone
have i forget
or am i the forgotten
my glass is empty
time for sleeep maybe?

weird

Mon, 23 Nov 2009 04:16:01 GMT

the curse of the universe
it is upon us
vibrations are low
as everything explodes
torn away from our families
the vulture takes control
clawing at the scabes
being ripped apart
god bless the faith of depression
the string of events bring us face to face
its weird
ITS WEIRD

nEVER

Fri, 13 Nov 2009 05:51:31 GMT

MY HEART WAS POISONED
WITH THE OPPOSITE OF LOVE
DESCEND TO SELF DESTRUCT
SO WHY GIVE A FUCK?
TEARS WERE NEVER BORN FOR U
WALLS FORM AFTER signs OF LOVE
IT WILL NEVER WORK
SO ERASE THE SHADOWS !
I AM NOT LIKE YOU!

new year

Wed, 11 Nov 2009 06:47:52 GMT

been sick for awhile
hidding under the covers
threatend by the wolf
been high in the clouds
waiting for someone to show up
out in the rain
is no one the same
feeling like shit from the acid on my tongue
floating through the rain
to speed through time
embrasing a new line
going into stage two.
growing towards the sun and the moon
vibrating through the sound
progressing parralells
circling towards me

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 06:53:28 GMT

you will never know the things i have captured during your disappearence
i dint need you anymore its just a dispapearence of emotion
i dont want to hear what you have to say
everything is erased

breaking everything for forever
it cant be undone
whats has changed is nothing
nothing you will ever know
will change!

soooooo...........

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 02:34:35 GMT

let me start off by saying 3rd times a charm the (FUCKING) mars volta were amazing . i was front row center
got in for free cause im on the street team and met them before the show. had a blast met new people
there backdrop was killer as good as tool live! ill post pics later.

school is ending but not without driving completely insane first.
its be hard lately with everything that is going on around me.
or shall i say what has been going on inside me.
always been extreme highs and extreme lows,
their never is a inbetween.

come out for the halloween show with filth on demand and astrid haven @ tremont

Thu, 22 Oct 2009 05:24:23 GMT

well 6 weeks left of school till i graduate!
god im so ready to be done!
things are tough right now!
but TOMORROW is full of awesome!
gonna meet up with the mars volta tomorrow before the show
and hand out shit for the street team and the go see them for FREE!
it will be fucking awesome!
this will be my 3rd time seeing them!
cant wait!

everything that hurts

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 06:50:56 GMT

life is bizzar right now
everything feels like i dont know how
blazzing through the bull shit
turning away from society
i love the real feeling of life
empty souls hogging the air
walking around without a care
crawling through it for nothing
but i will march on till it becomes dawn
the vibrations feel me with energy
radiating from the moon
searching yeah searching that one soul
that will fill this hole

new moon

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 02:05:33 GMT

thoughts evaporating
smoke rising
souls escaping
lives expanding
redesigning our death trap
trying to figure out who is hunting me
dispersing of her trap
coming closer to the vail
blaring eyes absorbing her energy
calling upon the fallen ones
rising up
destroying whats was fucked up
taking her down

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 04:45:50 GMT

you didn't get what i sent you
pouring magical potion in to your brain
to keep you from sucking me dry
i will not be tricked again
i hear your thoughts off in the distance
like nuclear bombs going off
escaping from the shrapnel
in the mist of the war
i discovered some tools
breaking apart the rust
cleansing them with blood sounds good
crafting a disturbing re apearance
devouring the new and disposing of you
breaking everything down
the pain will go aways for those of you
who haven't abused it

viewing you

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 05:14:28 GMT

rambling flights to the sky
while watching everyone die
incased by this feeling
watching you all kneeling

becoming infacuated with this being
this feeing of knowing whats right
the unvailing of your face
made me fucking hate this race

my halo finally showed up
halfway through my face
isnt that always the case
just be ready to go up.

when the numberz line up
when the signs line up
when the planets line up
when its all fucked up
just be ready to go up.

metaMOPHISIS

Fri, 11 Sep 2009 04:44:52 GMT

feels like ive been to hell and back
now i arrive to a portal that could hold everything
hell yeah im gonna walk right in it
i might just leave everything behind

i have realized the purpose
i am now starting to ooz my body totally bruised
turning into sticky gooie ooz
this will be the manifestation of a rebirth
rebuild of molecules ,cells changing shape
the latter has been altered
the growing of wings
gathering from diffrent identities
willing to fly away from this home
the one i nested in for 25 years

who know when i will return
hopefully i will see you again soon
waiting for the arrival of the end
dont worrie ill be there

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 05:46:03 GMT

so i havent updated in a while so hers what i ve been up to lately

me tattooing mark which i am soon to be getting a start tattooing set from him. which is fucking awesome there are big plans in the works...
been piercing at sadu for the past 2 months thing are going great i will be there full time starting in january!
so hellz yeah for that. its awesome to work with such great people.
another piercing i have done. thanx to collete for letting me poke another hole in her.
got to see manson again in atl with hollee and mason such a fucking awesome show
we were front row center stage it was bad ass.
also went to the tool show in charlotte went with mason corinna eizabeth and other folks
we were rockin and ROLLIN at tool it was a very interesting expierence. probablly the best concert i have ever seen

filth has been playing alot of show lately and things are going great.
other than almost passing out from the heat and crowds that are dumber than muhles..?
big things are comeing soon.

me and hollee are doing great. its awesome when a person is on the same
wave length with you. things go alot smoother.
i really feel a new chapter starting soon. i am more focused and ready
for anything and everything.

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 05:14:55 GMT

things changing
people falling into place
structures being built
the rise of a new sun
a dawn with a future
becoming something
something is rising
i feel it rising in me
the hunt starts

DISAPPEARING ACT

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 04:25:15 GMT

i disapPear
im diffrent than you
im diffRent thAN all of you
IF i dissapear
i would take you
i would take all of you

i just wanna dissapear
i just dont wanna be here
erase me from this place
delete my name
so u couldnt hurt me
hurt me with these words

dead in the d1rt

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 04:11:39 GMT

crawling in the ground like we always do
in hope of finding the divine
i wont remain
not crawling behind you
i project myself through you
inlightened inside

im not an empty seed
cant you see
flickering your lashes at me
dont you know
you CAN hold my insides

S{PA1N}

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 05:28:08 GMT

struck by your bones it hurts.
i fiend 4 your pain.
the feeling of pain

push through the skin
puncturing you from with in
you never even noticed
now im gone without a trace
whip that silly look of your face

feel it lovers do
destroy it we all do
get it i do

SHIT FROM A BULL

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 05:24:24 GMT

we all might as well forget the past
make peace and make it fast
settle what is unsettling
show your true face
speak with a voice
not with your fingers
realize you only have one home
and that home is here
were all we got so
wake up and move on
the sun rises in our view
rejuvinated with love
party as one
enjoy the time
cause its certinlly sucks wakeing up alone
do u wanna be a fuckin drone
<3

puZZL3ZZ

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 05:22:28 GMT

seeing people eat themselves
seeing everything dying is a burden under the sea
these are the things i see
its a damn burden for me
puzzle
puzzle
puzzle me

trying to fit into a life thats already dead
trying to arise from this place i used to calll home
will i ever fit
pieces falling
falling into me

readings
of sea green proficies
vaporizing u all till your clean
its ment to be inbetween

BLARGGGG.......

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 05:33:15 GMT

fucking awesome ass fuckin weekend with my hazzardous girl!
friday was teddyz b day had a blast with mason teddy ek and hollee
saturday spent the day with nero kodi and josh at the 1065 studio getting our music into there system
were going to do to a interview and radio plug for the aug 1st show with astrid haven and then one with the
virus twiins for aug 8th. so thats exciting. then me josh and kodi went to the dnd thing at the underground and
promod the upcomeing shows and hung out with the virus twiins which are the best band ever.
sunday me and hollee went to amos and hung out the the virus twiins again for there show at amos
had a fucking blast with them.
all in all hell of a good weekend
the only thing missing is MY PATRIK VON FATAL......LOL
WHO ALMOST GOT KILLD IN MARYLAND AND BALTAMOR
I HOPE HES STILL ALIVE. I NEED HIM....LOL
SO YEAH

VAINZ

Thu, 09 Jul 2009 04:55:25 GMT

RRRRAAAWWRRR......
EXPLOSION OF FAIRIEZ
THE DEATH OF LOVE
EVERYONE WILL DRINK POISON
CAUSE I WILL
I CUT OFF YOUR EARS SO U CANT HEAR ME
SAY I KILLED HER
I PAINT MY FACE WITH YOUR WAST
U WILL DROWND IN A PIT OF ASHES
DONT WEAR BLACK I DONT WANNA MATCH
FUCK YOU WHY WOULD I WANT U BACK

?

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 07:09:16 GMT

drifting across the lanes into the median
wondering if carnage will appear and take me away
detached from body and soul
my life is only a hole

LIEghtsWITCH

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 03:31:14 GMT

loving feelings and emotions
spitting words of black venom
the ora around u its not yours
the roots have u there taking u underground
the ora around u its not yours so burn it
SO BURN IT

be afraid
there brewing up something
be afraid
they have been waiting
WAITING FOR YOU

as i morph into reality
u become so lost
in this fuckd up reality
hearing the screams
of souls dying
opening your eyes
to there voo doo
recording with my eyes
dont give into what they do
there black eyes
know nothing what we do

:)

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 17:57:30 GMT

running through dark lite forest
stomping on branches and berries
destroying everything
leaving nothing inside
leaving everyone behind
making head way
running away
escaping to higher ground
that way u cant bring me down
defeating u in every way
i prayed for this fucking day!